She was dying inside
Or was it that she wanted to? Either way, Kaori had to face what she caused. Though this task wasn't easy, one such as her is easily intimidated by someone so large, him being the leader of the gang she had gotten caught up in didn't help either. Thoughts ran through her mind, faster then the dark that swept over everything. Would he throw her out to die for what she's done? Would she be left on the street, to get attacked by whatever may be out there. For someone who acted so calm and strong Kaori was weak, like a dove in the jaws of a cat.
"I-I.. .Did... This... I think... I... Did. This." She said, softly and quietly. She was ashamed and confused. Feelings that she wasn't use to.
"No, I know I did this..." She spoke again, before Golem could reply.
"Well, how did you do it? What happened." He asked politely.
"I don't know. I have no idea...It just happened." She spoke on the verge of tears once again.
"It's okay, just tell me what you did before it happened. What was your movement?" He asked, intrigued.
"I got a bit...Angry, then I threw my fist down and the ground came up." She continued to look down, looking down like she had weights on her head.
"I see, perhaps your anger is what triggered it, and throwing your fist unleashed....Whatever it was. Who angered you, were you training with someone else?" He asked questionably, concerned if any other may have been hurt.
"Oh no! Yes, I was fighting someone...The ground lifting up made him fly into the back wall, he may still be there." She spoke sadly, knowing she may have killed someone, which was something she wasn't prepared for.
Golem nodded and was about to get up when Ghost walked into the room, her face a bit surprised by the scene. Ghost walked in, watching her step and looking around the room. She looked to Golem, who looked back to her. "What happened here?" She asked, scanning the room. "It seems that she may have let out something...Powerful, which caused the room to turn into...This." Golem said in a calm way. "I see, well-" Ghost was cut off as she looked to the back of the room where a man laid, obviously in a bad condition. Ghost quickly ran over to the man and kneeled down to check on him, Golem followed. Ghost sighed a little and got back up, looking to Kaori. "What have you done? You could have killed him. He barely alive now." Ghost said a bit forcefully. Kaori started to cry once more and looked up, something that was hard for her to do now. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to!" Before Ghost could reply Kaori forced herself up and scampered out of the room, leaving the two other behind with a man half living and a gym that's seen better days.
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Kaori ran to her room, upset with herself more then anything. Ghost's comment really didn't help her, so Kaori had to get away from them. She didn't know what she was to do. She didn't want the entire gang beating her up over this, giving her remarks like Ghost's. Maybe she should leave? Pack her bags and just leave, they would probably kick her out because of this anyway, so why not save them the trouble?
She ran to her closet and pulled out her clothes, what little clothing she had. She had managed to save a suitcase from when she traveled with her parents, so she had that on her side. She threw her clothes in it, without folding them, or organizing them neatly. She had to leave before anyone came to check on her, as if they would.
She slammed the suitcase's cover down and quickly zipped it closed, she began to lift it up but dropped it and ran for the bathroom. What little she did eat that day was no longer with her, instead it graced the toilet. She wasn't surprised, she always threw up when she felt like this. She cried, like she usually did. She was so weak, or she thought so. They group would be better off without her, only the strong survive, she believe. She didn't believe she was strong. So she wouldn't survive.
She lifted the suitcase once more and hauled it with her. She put her coat on and opened her door, looking out first to make sure no one was coming. The hall seemed clear, which was odd, there was usually always someone walking around, perhaps everyone was at the gym. Either way she stepped out and quickly walked down the hallway. She had pretty much memorized where everything was by now, so she could easily get to the door and out.
She took all the needed turns and finally reached the way out, she looked back toward the halls, letting more tears fall. She didn't want to leave, but it was for the best. She looked back to the way out and left, before the door closed on her Golem ran down the hall and saw her leave, he gave a surprised look. Kaori looked to him, her face wet with tears and her face low and sad. The door closed.
Kaori stood into the darkness, fear taking her over. She walked at first, then ran, if they would come after her, though she didn't think they would, she would need to make a good distance between them. So she ran into the darkness, without anywhere to go, without anyone to protect her. Maybe something would kill her, she could dream.
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